Act I

I keep having this dream where I find rooms in the flat that I didn’t know were there. I’ll open a door and there’s a corridor or a staircase or a room that’s always been there and I just haven’t ever noticed it before. At night this building expands, its edges keep shifting. I think I know more than I’m supposed to.

In one of these dreams it’s just me squeezed into some sort of cavity, underneath or behind, deep in the building. There’s the sound of a boiler buzzing. I don’t know where I am but I didn’t put myself in here and I can’t get myself out.

I can hear talking, a conversation between two people somewhere close by. I can’t hear what they’re saying, but I can tell that they don’t know each other. As it goes on her voice gets louder, harder. She asks him to leave, the door goes and then quiet. I’m crouching in this tiny dark space, safe, reassured even, hiding, listening.

For the first year that I lived here I didn’t have any curtains. To begin with it didn’t really bother me, I figured that if anybody could see me it’s not like they knew me so why should I care. But in winter it was dark all the time, and the window was this big mirror so all I could see was the room reflected and me in it. I didn’t like that feeling of being on display all the time, so sometimes I’d sit with the lights off so that I could see out but other people couldn’t see in. Some of the flats across the street had the lights on and curtains open all the time, I’m not sure why.

I kept pestering the landlord about the curtains but nothing happened so in the end I stapled up a sheet over the window in my bedroom, just to get a bit of privacy. Then one day I came back from work and walked in the living room and there was a man putting up a curtain rail. He scared the shit out of me, I wasn’t expecting it at all. He said the landlord had let him in which would make sense, but at the time I remember thinking that was weird cos he never answered any of my messages and I didn’t even know he had a key.

He left saying he’d be back the next day or the day after to put up the new curtains, but he never came back. And it was only after he’d gone and I was getting into bed that I realised he’d taken the sheet with him. I stayed up that night for so long, just staring out the window at the flats opposite seeing who was still awake with me. In the morning I called the landlord about it but he never got back to me. About a week after that I had a girl over and at some point I switched the lights off and I saw this long silhouette of a person standing in the window of the flat opposite, pressed right up close to the glass. They were stood still looking over at us, against the green light in the kitchen behind. I mean they could’ve just been looking out the window it’s not like I know for certain they were watching us but I dunno, after that I felt kind of weird about it.

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The ugly man from downstairs is back with his ugly wife. She’s carrying two orange plastic bags, tagging a bit behind him. He’s doing all the talking, no surprises. Whatever he’s saying he obviously thinks it’s really important cos the way he’s waving his arms about it’s like he’s got an invisible audience. He’s too far away for me to be able to hear what he’s saying but I’d put money on it being completely trivial. His wife isn’t paying any attention, not that he’s noticed. She’s thinking god I wish you’d shut up I wish I never had to listen to another word, which is what I would be thinking if I had to listen to him banging on and on like that all day. She just ignores him but then she looks up at me and I’m about to duck out of sight but she’s staring right at me with this face that I can’t put my finger on, sort of fear but also kindness, like she’s trying to tell me something except she’s four floors down so it’s hard to know what it is.

In the dreams I see myself and what I’m seeing. There are two cameras, two shots running together at the same time.

It’s in slow motion, hand held, just one shot of a woman walking from behind, zoomed in, from the waist up, mostly just the back of her head. It jerks around a lot, moving in step with her but at a distance, on and on like that, her hair swishing side to side. The way she walks I can tell she knows there’s somebody behind her. A couple of times she turns her head to the side a bit and I’m thinking yeah ok I know that feeling, like when you can see someone out the corner of your eye but you don’t wanna turn and look them right in the face. For some reason I keep expecting her to spin around and see me looking. I know I shouldn’t be watching but at the same time I can’t stop.

I wake to the sound of the door and then I am stood upright by the side of the bed, my eyes wide while the room rolls around me. Sunlight has slipped between the curtains. Dust floats stirred, a thin line reaching gracefully across the room.

There’s a man at the door from pest control who says there’s an infestation in the building and he’s got to come check the beds. It’s the first I’ve heard of it. I don’t really want to let him in but before I’ve even had a chance to speak he’s walked straight past me and into the bedroom.

He asks me to remove the sheets so I do, then he’s kneeling all folded up on the floor. I’m looking at him thinking why do I recognise you where have I seen your face? Then I notice all these stains on the mattress that I’ve never seen before and he gives me a look as if to say see I told you. He’s parting the seam with two fingers and inspecting it closely and this sour taste starts rising up slimy in the back of my mouth and I don’t know if it’s from him or from me but while he’s got his back turned I lift up the hem of my t-shirt and my stomach and my hips and all around the sides are covered in these red scabs or bites and I’m thinking what the fuck has happened here

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and it’s not just bites it’s a rash or no it’s moving something in my skin like eggs or loads of tiny insects squirming under the surface

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then we are in another room, one I didn’t know was here. It is the pest control man and me and we are looking out of a first floor window, down onto a road which is a road I used to live on, in a different city to where we are now.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There’s a way of getting into my building that I discovered the other night.

Around the corner, probably about a ten minute walk down the main road, there’s a take away called Mr. Ma’s. I used to walk back that way whenever I missed the last train and it was always open no matter how late. Very well lit if I remember right, with all these faded pictures of the dishes laminated and pinned up on the wall. Never anybody in there though.

So I was in this takeaway – I’m pretty sure it was Mr. Ma’s – and at the very back there was this door. I just walked behind the counter real casual and straight through the kitchen to the door, and the woman at the till didn’t say anything. Then I was on a staircase going up and up, and somehow I came out in my building, at the end of my corridor.

I went past Mr. Ma’s today and had a look through the window and there is a door at the back of the kitchen exactly where I thought. I didn’t go in though I just stood on the pavement and looked in through the window at this long greasy looking guy who was sat in there all squeezed up into the plastic chair and table. He was staring right at me while he crammed these fat noodles into his tiny mouth. The ugly man from downstairs was sat there with his ugly wife as well but not talking to each other maybe cos he’d run out of things to say.

Something seemed to be going on though, it was all a bit off. The ugly woman was staring at the greasy man who was staring at me and then he gave me this look as if to say come and have a seat here, like he patted the seat next to him with his eyes. I didn’t react I just stood there looking past him at the door at the back and then at the woman at the till. She was giving me this weird look I dunno what it was but she definitely wasn’t inviting me inside.

I’m scrunched up in this dark space tiny twisted up in some way adjusting myself trying to get comfy and I can hear a loud rustling right up in my ear so I’m crouched there trying to work out what’s going on and I can smell plastic like bin liners clean ones you know that smell it’s so distinctive and it’s completely black so I can’t see a thing and I can’t feel my arms or legs either so I’m shuffling around trying to feel it out and then I find my hands but they are so heavy like sand or something dragging up and pushing at the edges of the bag trying to tear a little hole thinking this is easy I can do this it’s only thin plastic but my fingers are so weak and it’s taking all my weight just to push a tiny hole cos all I want to do is let some light in just to see what the fuck is going on so I’m holding my breath and giving it everything I’ve got but I can’t I can’t I’m pressing forcing fingers but its draining all the energy I have is dripping out my limbs, my hands keep slipping, god I’m tired, my fingers slow and weak keep failing.

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ACT I

Eva Gold, For your Discreet Viewing Pleasure, 2020

Eva Gold is a London-based artist who works across sculpture, installation, video and writing, often combined in a process of fragmented storytelling. Eva Gold navigates feelings of desire and disgust, and their uncomfortable proximity. Locating a space in which these two meet, she identifies the emotional threshold where arousal tips over into horror. Eva’s practice raises questions about desire in public and private domains, agency, vulnerability, and consent. Eva Gold graduated from Goldsmiths College in 2016 and the Royal Academy Schools in 2019. She recently completed a commission for Parrhesiades, part of which was presented at Goldsmiths Centre for Contemporary Art, London.

Repurposed film footage from:
Hidden (Caché), (Michael Haneke, 2005)
Lost Highway (David Lynch, 1997)

Sets and Scenarios is a collaboration between Jade Barget, Angela Blanc, Panos Fourtoulakis, Sha Li, Yi-Ning Lin, Charlotte dos Santos, and Lindsey Wiercioch as part of the MA Curating Contemporary Art Programme Graduate Projects 2020, Royal College of Art, London in partnership with Nottingham Contemporary.

Every evening, on the homepage, a screening programme presents works interrogating the relationship between viewer and screen as moving images penetrate retina and ear, before creeping beneath the skin.

Tuesday June 16, 8 pm

Shahryar Nashat, Image Is an Orphan, 2017, 18 min. One hour loop.

Please be aware that the work contains violent imagery.

Wednesday June 17, 8 pm

Deborah Stratman, Vever (for Barbara), 2019, 12 min.
James Richards and Steve Reinke, What Weakens The Flesh Is The Flesh Itself, 2017, 40 min.

Please be aware that works within this screening contain female and male nudity, and sexual content. 

Thursday June 18, 8 pm

Ken McMullen, Ghost Dance, 1983, 22 min. (excerpt)
Thuy-Han Nguyen-Chi, Syncrisis, movement I, 2018-ongoing, 7 min.
Mary Helena Clark, Orpheus (outtakes), 2013, 6 min.
Cerith Wyn Evans, Degrees of Blindness, 1988, 19 min.

Please be aware that works within this screening contain flashing images and lights.

Friday June 19, 8 pm

Eva Gold, Perv City (Act I), 2020, 30 sec.
Bette Gordon, Variety, 1983, 01:40:00 min.

Please be aware that some of the works within this screening contain female nudity and sexual content.

Saturday June 20, 8 pm

Sidsel Meineche Hansen, Seroquel®, 2014, 8 min.
Adam Christensen, The Last Fucking Rave, 2015, 12 min.
James Richards, Not Blacking Out Just Turning the Lights Off, 2012, 16 min.

Please be aware that works within this screening contain female nudity.

Sunday June 21, 5 pm

Closing
All moving image works presented throughout the week will be streamed together, marking the end of Sets and Scenarios‘ live programme.

Sets and Scenarios is a collaboration between Jade Barget, Angela Blanc, Panos Fourtoulakis, Sha Li, Yi-Ning Lin, Charlotte dos Santos, and Lindsey Wiercioch as part of the MA Curating Contemporary Art Programme Graduate Projects 2020, Royal College of Art, London in partnership with Nottingham Contemporary.